RapedPosted: October 2, 2013
I was raped yesterday.
I know that technically that’s what it was, and yet it it so much more complicated than that. Girl friends are angry with me for not going to the police. My Dom asked me if I liked it. Another male friend wanted to know how “serious” it was–did it hurt? Am I traumatized? Were we role-playing?
Here is what happened:
I went to D.F.’s house. He fingered me in the car. He told me to suck him, he fucked me, and then he took off his belt and whipped me over and over again for cancelling our last “date”. It hurt. I whimpered and screamed, but I took it. He finally stopped. He clamped my nipples and told me to get upstairs. I told him I didn’t think I could walk. He said I’d better, or he’d beat me. I hobbled up the stairs, clutching the railing.
He told me to lie down. I did as I was told. He blind-folded me, tied me to the bed posts with my arms and legs in the air, and put a ball-gag in my mouth. I remember the thought “he could kill me” floating through my head. I was pretty sure he wouldn’t, but I wondered what the hell was wrong with me that I was willing to take that risk.
Honestly, what happened in between is a blur. I know I came a LOT. I know I screamed, and not because it hurt. I know I was really uncomfortable being tied up in that position but that I did not complain. The next thing I remember is him sliding a lubed finger inside my ass. I tensed up instantly. He commanded me several times to relax, and I tried to obey. I whimpered but eventually I came, complete with screaming, moaning and squirting.
Then, he asked me if I wanted his “big cock” in my ass. I shook my head frantically, and said “No” around the ball gag. He asked me again, and again I shook my head and said “No.” He told me he knew what he was doing. That he would not hurt me. I said “Please don’t,” “Please stop,” but he didn’t. I bit my lip and squeezed my eyes shut and waited for it to be over. When he was done, I asked him to untie me.
He said he wanted to fuck me again first. I did not argue. I let him fuck me. I do not know if or when or where he came. He untied me, finally. He took off my blind-fold and took out my gag.
He said “I guess we should have discussed whether your little virgin ass was off-limits. But now you know what ass-play is like, whether you like it or not.”
He kissed me.