LearningPosted: July 7, 2014
I went on a date last night.
Someone I know from Fet offered to take me to coffee and cheer me up. I knew it wouldn’t go anywhere so I figured why not.
He picked me up, like a gentleman, instead of making me take the bus.
We went to a cute little tea house and then for a walk through downtown to a nice look out point.
We held hands and I thought his were scratchy.
We kissed and I felt nothing.
We had a nice talk and he seems like someone I would want to be friends with. I told him that and he said it sounded good, “unless you find a dom that suits you better.”
I will explain myself again today, and if he still wants to dom me then I guess we won’t be friends.
I am talking to a couple of other men as well.
One is already starting to monopolize my time via text. He is getting pushy. He wants me to tell him why he should choose me as his baby girl over someone else.
Um, actually I don’t really care lol. Either you move to the city at the end of the month, meet me, get to know me, want me, ask me, and if I feel the same we do, and if I don’t, we don’t.
This afternoon, when I am supposed to be sending him an email detailing YET AGAIN why I “need” a dom, I am instead going to tell him that he is being too pushy and I am not interested.
It’s too bad because he’s really freaking hot, his references are glowing (learned from a new friend that Dom references are a thing–who knew? This would have helped a LOT), he’s built like a truck, AND he’s Black–I’ve never been with a Black guy before and have always wanted to.
But I won’t be letting anyone I haven’t even met in person yet Dom me. I was very clear that I want to get to know my next Daddy first, for a long time, before I ever call him that or give him that power over me, and he doesn’t seem to be respecting that.
So bye-bye he goes.
Tonight is coffee with someone from Fet Life who I will also just be friends with, maybe friends with benefits if it’s there, but nothing more. He has a baby girl and I don’t share Daddies with other Littles.
Devastation has given me a healthy dose of “I don’t give a fuck.” Respect my boundaries or see you later.