This is My LifePosted: October 1, 2014
We disabled our OkCupid accounts today.
There is no reason for us to look anymore.
“I’m done,” he said.
I am bungee-ing back and forth between elation and terror.
I am so happy, yet so apprehensive.
My apprehension has nothing to do with him. Well, that’s not strictly true. But I am not gun-shy because of anything he is, has said, or has done. It is the fact that I honestly never thought I’d find him. Never, ever, ever.
The chances. . .they are like finding a needle in a haystack, or winning the lottery. How is it possible that there is someone out there who is so much fun, so smart, so hilariously quirky and such a great lover? How is it possible that he is so cute, so honest, so kind, so considerate, and that he understands where I am coming from, and says things I have thought and felt, but never been able to express to another human being? How did I find someone who is so spontaneous yet responsible, such a gentleman yet such a badass, who loves with his whole heart yet does not become possessive or jealous or needy?
And how is it possible that, being all of these things, he wants me?
I feel like I’m dreaming. . .but this is my life.